Designing Life {Pre-school Graduation}

May 22, 2014

As the countdown to Kindergarten continues, I find myself constantly returning to the question:

” How are we best designing life for our family right now”?

Most of the time, I can come back pretty quickly with the answers that typically include, spending quality time together, spending quality time apart ( everyone needs a break once in a while!) pursuing dreams NOT at the cost of others, teaching love, kindness, respect, and the importance of relationships. We never really know how many of these things sink into the tiny little soul that is our almost 5 year old. I mean,  we witness the day to day special moments, but every once in a while, something Liam says or does smacks me right in the ever loving heart, and I just melt.

 

 

Yesterday was Liam’s graduation from Pre-school. I wasn’t too emotional, mostly because summer camp, at the same school, with the same friends, starts in two weeks. So not a whole lot is changing. So, as I was saying, I wasn’t too emotional until….we were in the car on the way to his last day, and he sweetly said to me in his little 4 1/2 yr old voice,

“Mom, is today my last day of Pre-school” so of course I said “Yes” and he said to me, ” Mama, I’m afraid Kindergarten is breaking up my team” 🙁 I was driving, so he wasn’t able to see the tears rolling down my face, as I remembered how nervous I was for him to start pre-school, and what its probably going to be like dropping him at his first day of Kindergarten, My baby. His team, as he mentioned is a group of 3 loving, kind, friends that have a special bond. They take care of each other, they protect each other, they have so much fun,  and most importantly they play Star wars together. Which, to 4 and 5 yr olds, is more important than anything sappy mamas can teach!

 

In that moment, all the daily chaos that can surround us, stopped. I stopped worrying about what time I needed to be where, and who I needed to pick up at what time, and what fabric was being delivered when. It stopped. It sucked me RIGHT back to the present moment, and the feeling of watching my baby grow up.

      

Its was really A moment of realization that we always have a choice, a choice to continue designing life as we want. Striving for happiness and balance, and honoring the moments that feel a little out of balance and not entirely happy. Liam helps me remember what important, yesterday, he helped me remember MY teams, and all the “Teams” I have created along the way, and I am SO grateful for each one !!! Happy Thursday!

 ~Kim