Holy Crap.
How? How? How?? has it been over 10 months since Grant and I took the plunge, and moved our lives from New York to Nashville!!?? There has been some growing pains, but for the most part, we know deep deep deep down in our ROOTS, that this is the place for us to raise our babies…raise ourselves as parents, and really allow our lives to continue to expand!!
Every year around this time, I start to reflect on what has happened over the past year….it always astounds me. Every-time. EVERY.SINGLE.TIME.!!! When we moved here, Liam couldn’t even reach our bathroom sink. He still wore pull ups and the first night in our new home, was his first night in a big boy bed. Tears. I am literally watching and feeling the time zoom past, and feel lucky, that a good portion of the time on the crazy time train is spent RIGHT beside him, watching him grow….but then…things happen like being a room mom for his Halloween party, and I spend a good portion of the day crying. Feeling sad, asking myself
“How are we HERE” already…A room mom?? but only moms with BIG kids are room moms…only kids with ROOMS, have room moms…Oh wait..thats me, thats us, thats Liam”. But also feeling overwhelmingly proud. Proud to actually SEE him as a boy, in a class, with other kids, and his “away from Mom” version of himself…and what I saw, was a kind, happy, empathetic, polite, little boy. A little boy who watched as a little girls cupcake fell on the floor, and he stopped eating his and offered it to her. More tears. Luckily I was only there for an hour, so I had plenty of home time to cry in my tea, and reflect, and give thanks. It goes fast you guys. It goes really really fast.
I have also, in the past 10 months, remembered that I have another version of myself too…a version of myself away from Liam, not just Liams mom, but a working me. A creator of my own dreams!! Say what??!! It hasn’t been easy everyday! there is still that fear of failure, and the sometimes bigger fear of success lol!! its been, and continues to be a labor of love, but its SO.WORTH.IT!!! I have found my body again! I have started 3 new business!! and guess what, its all ok.!! I am learning how to pave the way for women to follow more than just one passion and really have it work!! or truly, realize one large passion, and find lots of ways to bring that passion to bigger groups!! I have realized that I foster connection. Thats my gift. I help connect People to space.(Design Thoughts Interiors) and I help connect Women to their authentic Selves (LIFE.designed) through fitness ( BeachBody) and through sitting with other women and hearing their own story as others speak ( Sisterhood Circle). Biggest lesson so far: STAY OPEN to anything that may come my way, follow my gut, move forward for as long as it feels right.!! XO
Miss you all!!! I will see you from time to time here on the blog!! Also check out my new Design Thoughts Interiors Website. At some point I will learn how to combine both !!
XO kim
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